OK, maybe me having shortbread for breakfast. The fantastic shortbread lady had a new flavor this season – coconut lime. And I wasn’t totally sure about the combo, but thought it was worth a try, and later remembered they did make a whole song about putting the lime in the coconut, so…
Oh they’re so good!! You get this great sweetness from the coconut and then just enough lime to keep it from being *too* sweet, and it just…lifts it? I don’t know how else to describe it, but it’s delicious.
Oh, and the Jamaican jerk pork I picked up yesterday was very tasty, though my brother did describe it as “Spice Level: Burke.” But still – good!
Thursday I had to go to T-Mobile to see about replacing my phone, cause the battery has done that “overheat and expand” thing, which isn’t great – they said the replacement should be in store in a day or two – I got the notification that it shipped Friday, but it’s not in yet – I kinda spent all day in wait mode yesterday.
“Wait mode” is so weird, but honestly, once I found out it was actually pretty common and had a name – I felt a lot better about it. It’s been very interesting over the past IDK, 5 to 10 years as I realized how many things I though were personal failings were far more likely to just be ADHD and/or it’s various and sundry friends.
I’m at a stage in my life where I don’t really think it’s worth it to get an official diagnosis, but just finally realizing it all has made quite a difference. I guiltlessly engage in various coping mechanisms to get things done, and I am a LOT gentler with myself.
Like “wait mode” – sometimes I can gently talk myself out of it to get a few things done, and sometimes I realize fighting it is going to cause me far more stress than it’s worth, and I just let it go. And today is one of those days – waiting to hear if the phone has arrived, but also, some things need to be get done… So, today I’m just going to focus on “how about I just do the next thing on the list” because no one thing on the list will take that long and I can easily finish any given task and pivot to picking up the phone if it arrives.
I just have to remind myself of that. A lot. 🤣
But it’s all good. I’m not lazy, I’m not a slob – I’ve just spent most of my life running under a bad set of assumptions about how my brain works.
Be good to yourself today.