I still very much like my job and the work I do and the folks I work with, but hooooboy, we are definitely to the point where it’s time for a bit of a break.

With this next release coming up, we’ve got some procedural changes – truly temporary, but they don’t really make any obvious sense, folks don’t really get it and the procedures are getting fucked up – and it’s hardly the end of the world, it’s gonna happen, especially since the changes just don’t make any sense. I am “eh, whatever” about it – if someone does it wrong, it doesn’t really mess me up, so I don’t worry about it and try to explain IT’S NOT CLEAR THAT’S WHY FOLKS ARE FUCKING IT UP to others who are getting their knickers in a twist over it. (To no avail, but I try.)

Then on Monday of our devs gently circumvented the entire process and went on vacation for two weeks. Honestly, I howled when I heard. Like I said, it doesn’t make sense and people are gonna make mistakes with it… (And again, not the end of the world.)

And also with this release we’re in the crush of final testing and…I am feeling inadequate. My work on this one app has been so, so slow going – I’m finding things wrong, which is GOOD AND THE POINT OF ALL THIS – but once something gets fixed, I have to start everything over again. Which isn’t hard – I’ve managed to sort of automate the “reset/reload/restart” process, and every test run goes faster, cause honestly, muscle memory kicks in real quick. But I just feel the need to scream, “I’M NOT SITTING HERE ALL DAY CONTEMPLATING MY NAVEL, I SWEAR.”

And in the midst of all this, I’m getting dragged into client stuff. Like, no, not now, please. I do not have the time, energy, or patience for it. Especially the patience.

My whole afternoon today was writing a tutorial for a client, because, of course. Will it help them? Will it make sense? I hope so – I’ve run it by the product manager, because it makes perfect sense to me, but that isn’t exactly saying much.

But tomorrow is Friday, this too shall pass, and just one more week until vacation.