Once again

I’m not super enthused about work today.

I’m tired.

My work doesn’t matter in the big scheme of things.

I need a get the fuck away from this vacation. As does everyone else.

I’m just very tired.

31 days, 15 hours, 21 minutes.

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Welp…counting down to 5/1 it seems

I’m glad the administration got its head out of its ass and said they’re recommending 30 more days of social distancing. (Were they actually *really* recommending it before?)

It’s a dot on the horizon we need.

Granted, it’s a dot that will probably move, but it’s something to focus on.

32 days, 3 hours, 50 minutes.

I hope.

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Day 16.

Though the days are all running together and time is a mess, I am so glad it is the weekend.  Spending M-F working and just sort of pretending everything is OK is oddly exhausting.

I have been able to finally settle down enough in the evenings to do needlework, which is nice – that took a good week and a half to get to that point.

Shoutout to the folks who “stress-action” – stress clean, bake, whatever. I wish I was a stress cleaner – instead I just tend to quietly shut down, LOL.

Our CEO sent out a little video message check in, which was a nice thing to do, but hey, CEO’s of the world – some tips:

– Unless you are actually somehow using the AirPods to make the video, take them out.
– Do not, under any circumstances, use the word “golfing” or any variation on it.

Major props to VDH for being pretty transparent with Virginia’s testing & case data. As a data driven person, I appreciate being able to look at these numbers. That being said, we do not appear to be really flattening the curve.

Looking at the past two weeks and the progression of cases & hospitalizations, we will max out our ICU beds in 11 days, on 4/8. Granted, that is pushed back from 4/7 as of 3/20, but it’s not enough of a move fast enough.

But, as we all know all too well, a LOT can happen in 11 days. So, maybe staying in will work – we just can’t tell yet – so we keep staying in.

It didn’t have to be this way. The idiot in chief… I am so sick of the “oh it came out of nowhere, everything was fine 20 days ago” etc, etc. Fuck him, I can pinpoint when I became aware of this on a daily basis – January 30. How do I know? Because at that point, we had a potential case at the university and I had to run an errand right next to the university, and I was a little weirded out by it. JANUARY FUCKING 30TH.

And the Defense Production Act was only kicked on yesterday. And he wants GM to reopen a factory they don’t own anymore. And the constant fucking lies and the retaliation against blue states… I swear, if we do not have some kind of truth & reconciliation commission when we’re on the backside of this… Heads need to roll. Hell, I’m thinking tarring & feathering needs to make a comeback.

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Not today, Satan… Day 14

Update: Sometime in the past 30 minutes, payroll hit. DID NOT NEED THAT STRESS.


So, my bank does the ‘get your direct deposit a day early’ thing – it’s very, very nice. Tomorrow is our “real” payday, but basically, if my bank has the transfer, they just put the money in my account.

Guess who doesn’t have a direct deposit today?

The last time this happened, there was a holiday and someone didn’t take the extra day into account.

No holiday this time around, so, what the fuck happened?

After being told our company is in better shape to weather the pandemic/recession than most and then this…


Last time this happened, it was sorted by Friday/Monday – and I can absorb it – but not everyone can.

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How is it only Wednesday? Day 13

Work the past two days wasn’t too bad once I got settled in – but yeah, settling in was kinda hard.

I cannot believe that 45 is talking about just “reopening everything” on Easter. LET’S JUST LET FOLKS DIE SO COMPANIES CAN MAKE MONEY! PACK THOSE CHURCHES!

Fuck that. We’ll be having our usual brunch at home.

We could make sure folks have the financial resources to stay home and safe and flatten the fuck out of this curve. There’s an idea.

The upside is that given that the feds haven’t done shit, they can’t really reopen much of anything. My fear is he will rescind the telework provisions and order federal workers back into the offices. And we don’t need to do that. I’ve sent notes to my reps on that.

Liberty University in VA is reopening. That’s a fuckton of stupid right there.

Virginia is in lockdown mode in pretty much everything but name only. Schools closed for the term. Entertainment closed. Non-essential open, but you can only have 10 people about. Restaurants carry out only. Grocery stores still open. Basically, no one is doing shit until 4/24 around here.

While I know folks really need a dot on the horizon that they can focus on – Easter isn’t it. It’s far, far too soon. Hell, 4/24 may very well be too soon, and we just won’t know until we get there.

Virginia’s % of positives as a total is ~6.5%, down from ~10% – but we’ve only test 0.05% of the state’s population. I’d love to say it’s a trend and staying in is helping, but we just don’t have enough data to be positive about it yet.

I hope Mar-A-Lago is infested with fire ants while it’s closed and can never reopen.

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Day 11… Oof.

I have to work. I’ve worked remotely for 3 1/2 years, so there has been no adjustment on that aspect of it all. But today, I am very, “could we not?”

But, I can’t even fathom how I am going to settle down enough to actually, you know, work? I test software. Last week, when I could get myself together enough to focus, work was a godsend – once I am into a test run, I am INTO A TEST RUN. But, just getting there – HARD.

Multiple reasons for this, obviously.

– Hey, we’re in a pandemic!

– My job doesn’t feel like it actually *helps* anyone in this shitshow we’re calling life these days.

– The tone-deafness of corporate messaging. It really makes me want to scream.

But, we’ve gotta eat, and I’ve really got to keep this job, so I will do my best to get my shit together, because “who didn’t handle a pandemic well” will be at the top of the “who to cut” list when it comes to that.

On a lighter note… we had our first culinary disaster last night. Little bro made stuffing and grabbed the wrong size pyrex cup to add the water and didn’t realize it until it was too late. Stuffing soup. I tried putting some in a frypan to cook off the excess water – a valiant effort, but alas, it did not work. (And FML, I was cringing hard at the waste. FFS.)

Semi-related – my concerns about this fucking with my head on doing the marketing? Already happening. We have a jar of mustard that is just about empty in the fridge. A full one in the pantry. I bought another one, since the one in the pantry is about to be opened. (It wasn’t the last one in the shop or anything.) I am suddenly wanting backups of everything. :(

Welp, time to go attempt to work.

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Other pandemic ramblings

There’s part of me that is more than a little concerned this is going to turn me into a fucked up hoarder, and I don’t want that. But seriously, the only moment of true fear I’ve felt in all this was walking into the market last Friday night and seeing it cleared and just thinking “how can I feed my family if there is no food?”

Sure, my family is just me, my brother & Lily – but I never want to feel that again, even if it was momentary and I was able to pull myself together and get most of what we needed. So, I see some weird buying in my future for a little bit. (No buying out all stock or anything, just…you know what I mean.)

On a positive note, my brother says my vanilla lattes rival Starbucks! Go me!

On the whole, I feel pretty useless. I have no pandemic skills, and working doesn’t leave time to really help others. I’m throwing money at food banks and my folks in the service industry, but it feels weak, when it seems like so many regular people are REALLY helping. Work is especially weird since we’re just going about our business like any other day.

Once this is over, assuming I’m still employed – I’ll be redoubling my efforts to move. There’s just no real sense of community here for me – hasn’t been for a while, and this is highlighting it. (People aren’t being horrible, it’s just, I don’t know, it’s just weird and everyone is very disconnected from each other here.) But on the whole, looking out at the rest of the world, people are really good and I am very grateful to see that.

Speaking of employment – *that* is what has me worried right now. Not just for myself, but for everyone I know. And don’t know, for that matter.

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