Well, that was certainly a kick in the teeth. Gawd, this country hates women. 71 million, plus another 10 million that just didn’t show up. I hope those folks get the lives they deserve.

BECAUSE GOD FORBID WE LET THE BLACK LADY TRY AND MAKE OUR LIVES A LITTLE EASIER.

I’m angry and sad and hurt and fucking hell, my country betrayed me yet fucking again. And I know that folks in marginalized communities feel this every damn day of their lives. Honestly, I don’t know why we haven’t burned this whole place to the ground yet.

If you’re not white in the US and you feel all white folks need to be on your “Do Not Trust” list, I don’t blame you one bit. Hell, I’m white and I’ve got about 99% of the white population on that list.

And if someone tells me to wear a blue bracelet or knit a hat and stand around in the street, my response will be in the range of “fuck off” to “punch in the throat.” Not looking forward to the opposition grifters that will inevitably come out of the woodwork.

I’ll be honest, I have very few specific memories of the last term, because trauma fucks with your memory big time. I just remember a fucking constant firehose of horrors. I do still have the list of organizations where you could put your money I posted about 4 years ago.

But I think I’m going to need to find more small, local orgs that will need help. The local food bank comes to mind first. But of course, if this tariff shit goes through, more folks are gonna need help and the rest of us will have less money to do so given that just about everything is gonna cost more, and our income taxes will probably go up, too.

If you’ve decided you need to get out of the country and can swing it – do it. I sure has hell won’t judge you for it. I’ll be sad and angry that it has come to this, but I won’t judge you. Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind multiple times leading up to this week.

I don’t know what is going to happen, but I’m pretty sure it won’t be good. I think this time we’re going to see people fight back with violence, and I’ll be hard pressed to condemn it. (I know that does not make me a good person.)

For now, though, I’m just putting together a to-do list.

• Clean the house. I’m calmer when it’s clean and I definitely need that.
• Get forms to renew passport. (Not going anywhere, it’s just good to have.)
• Find local orgs that I can help.
• Get back on my yoga & walking bullshit, cause my mental health is gonna need it.
• Win lottery, leave country, take folks with me.

Let all those feelings you’re having just flow on through – no burying it! Great thing I saw today: Congrats on not letting your feelings become felonies!

Do what you can when you can. Take care of yourselves and those around you.